I put on long sleeves and hid my hair under my rust-colored hoodie and wore the last N95 mask we had left over from when I painted my study a couple of years ago, and went to Lowes for soil. My tomato seedlings are roaring along, and it’s time to take them out of their plugs and put them in better pots, but I hadn’t got a teaspoon of good soil left. I’m expecting nearly two hundred dollars of dahlia tubers, 75 tubers, sometime this month–ordered when I thought I’d be growing wedding flowers–and I haven’t anywhere to put them.
It’s strange and difficult to be planning two totally separate gardens–the one that will exist if we’re here for the duration, the one that will exist if we get the new place–and not knowing which one is true until the waveform collapses. I responded by dithering, and by starting more seeds. Some of this is Too Much If We’re Staying Here, but I’ve never had a problem giving tomato plants away.
(I planted 36 more tomato seeds yesterday, in addition to melons and squashes. This is, I understand, Too Many Tomatoes If We’re Staying Here, but I have never had difficulty giving them away.)
Yesterday I also combatted my own feelings of uselessness and fear by hand-making linguine. It was very bouncy–perhaps I should have rested it longer–and didn’t roll out as thin as I would have liked, but it still tasted pretty good.